I can't believe he is gone....
I've been a devoted fan since I was only months old, no matter what happend I never stopped faulterd - and now he has been taken from us so close to his come back...
I never believed he could die - he was supposed to live forever!
I can't find words to express my total devastation - no amount of the countless tears I shed will ever erase this loss.

The world has lost a legend the likes of which will never ever be matched.

May you finally find peace, I will love you always!!

To say its been a while since my last update would be akin to saying its been a while since I was a baby ><;

Its not so much that ive not had anything to say but more that everytime I think about something or go to logon my mind gets distracted and I forget all about it!
......I even renewed my subscription a couple of months back and still didnt come on lol

So to everyone who know's me from here or who has been wondering where I am and if I died a year ago.....HI! ^^

Feel free to send greetings and ego massage.....or ya know, just say nothing at all and leave me to feel unloved...*sheds a single tear*



Ah and since this is something that will be updated soon (when my fury has subsided a little) let me just say: PHONES4U SUCK!!! They are total scum and I sit here today to say, that were I to be arrested and given life for going into every Phones4U building/office/store and shooting all managers and staff until their corpses were nothing but stains on the floor, I would remain one of the happiest people every to walk this earth....*goes into a pleasent dream state*

I away to bed now since I am worn out from phone badness and need to refresh my head

It's 5.33am. I have been on the computer since 8.00pm.
I have spent this time sorting my iPod/iTunes library - Hunting down album art, Renaming files, Checking names etc.



What an eventful life I do lead....


[edit] A small plus from this is that I have managed to hunt down and download Agatsuma Hiromitsu's back catalogue so meditation should be a little more enjoyable now I have a wealth of new music.

BLOCKBUSTER GRANTHAM WILL BE HOSTING A GAMES DAY ON FRIDAY 3RD OCTOBER.

We will have consoles set up to play some new games and Goody Bags worth £15 given to those who Pre-Order any game/s - which will only cost them £1!
Bags will include: [subject to change]
1 x Bar of Galaxy [£1.29]
1 x Bag of Popcorn [£1.59]
1 x Can of Relentless [£1.19]
Money off Vouchers etc.

Please come down! show support, pre-order games and above all let us know what you think we could improve on! We are hoping to make this a regular thing if it does well but for that we need people to turn up and let us know we arn't flogging and dead horse lol

Also im planning on doing a small booklet for our next on at the end of October, featuring info about the new games and future releases, I may be adding one for films too since BB have not released a magazine in 8 months and we get a lot of comments about it being a help, so I would be really grateful if anyone here could answer me a few things:

• What attracts you too a game/film?


• What information would you find really helpful when thinking of buying a game/ renting a film?


• Does personal, honest opinion matter too you? i.e. If staff gave a small review of a games/film would that factor in your decision?


• What game/films are you most looking forward too?


• What do you like most about games/film magazines? i.e. Presentation, certain type's of articles etc..


• Anything else you can think would be a help?

Please Please Please take the time to reply to these questions because not only will it mean a lot to me personally but I am trying to make this a regular thing with a view to using it in CV to help with finding a new job.

I look forward to hearing your views ^_^

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Oh I just have to let out my joy and glee somewhere or I am likely to burst all over my walls so here it goes:

PERSONA 3: FES EDITION IS FINALLY BEING RELEASED IN UK ON 17 OCTOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't think they would do it since its a miracle they released Persona 3 over here in the first place, the fact they are willing to release the expanded edition and at £17.99 [original is still £24.99] is just mind blowing and enough to make the past few weeks look a whole lot better ^-^

For those who have yet to play this game I don't think I could truly explain just how fantastic is really is - Final Fantasy, Shadow Hearts, Tale Of etc style fantastic and that's and understatement lol I havn't had a chance to play it in a few weeks due to work but have put aside a couple of day next week to get stuck in again - though I will end up starting it all again when FES arrives since I look forward to trying all the extra's that pack out the original part of the game, not to mention the new chapter with an added 30+ hours of game play ^___________^

Has been 1 week now since I began my 24th year of being born....so far it aint the best folks.

Ok so yes this is in part to the fact that I went shopping in Manchester friday - the day it chose to rain constantly and not lightly the entire day...while I was wearing my trainers with the split sole's. I ended up with shoe's full of water and by the time I got back I was in no small amount of pain which has stayed - makes walking that little bit more fun ><;

I would give a long list of all birthday related stuff but I can't be bothered tonight so I am going to go watch Sugar Rush and enjoy my last day of holiday ^_^

Oh! I want to thank all of you that wished me a happy birthday ^_^ and those of you who didn't.............*strikes a dramatic pose before sobbing into a lace hanky* :P

I come to you this evening from the comfort of my bed (which is a whole 2ft from my comp ><;) using my latest purchase, Nintendo DS Lite Browser! It's not able to show video and its pretty slow but its nifty for having a browse when im too tired to move or at m'folks. I've not tested many sites bar Amazon which works but wont allow me to log in so its more of a searching items thing. If I find its not worth the effort though I know I can pretty much get my money back if not make a little profit since it seems to be selling high on ebay.

It's nice to be off my feet doing this though as im all kinds of shatterd after a exhausting day at work. We are trying to stick all the crap from the other store on the system so we can do this fucking inventory before we all die of old age >_<; I was sure it had all got sent elsewhere so we wouldn't have to deal with this shit but apparently some 'nice' people sent it back lol..can't say I blame them really!

Oh! Is anyone else watching channel 4's Bollywood/Asian season? or in fact does anyone else like bollywood films or amI alone here? lol Well if not I recommend watching a film I saw last night called KOI...MIL GAYA which is india's answer to E.T. but with singing, dancing and pure campness not to mention some sad moments :( Its pure wonderfulness and I would even go as far as to say it's better than E.T!! I shall be buying me some of that tomorrow when I get on the comp, along with the mass of other BW dvd's I have on my list now ^_^ will just have to split them with my manga buys too though since saying I'm behind a little on it would be an understatment! I've not bough anything in that area in months and me no likey!

Hope your feeling better now by the way Deb's, nana told me you hadn't been well :( If you have any time free next week btw let me know cause may have to go to Notts to get an order so your welcome to come even without money since I will be doing more of a window shopping than buying thanks to those 2 weeks of >_

This is all feeling little anti-climatic, I remember thinking in March that the year was going slowly and then BAM! Im here. Im not holding out much hope for any form of celebration which I guess would be wise given that even the prime minister can't be bothered to 'big up' the coming year. How pathetic is that? No "2008 is going to be amazing!!" or "We can look forward to a new year fully of hope's and dreams"...No....we get "Prime Minister Warns Of Bleak Year For Britain" - Now if that doesn't inspire you then we are all doomed ><;

Im having the fun at work at the moment, fun knowing that by 6th of January I could be jobless since we close trade at the store on 2nd January! They sure know how to pick the best time to close a store. We have to re-apply for our jobs and have all got interviews on 4th with various managers to determine whether we will be kept on or not. So that being the case I have been applying for jobs left and right in the hope's that maybe I won't have to stay on - considering I was to leave this month, staying on is not a choice I would make if not for my need of funds.

Really I should be making some big forecast for the coming year, how I plan to pass my driving test, how im going to loose weight so im not a fat, ugly, boyfriendless heffer anymore, how im going to get a new job that isn't killing my spirit every second of my life.............however there isn't much point, I say do - dont say what you going to do but what you have done......lol as if!

oh that's real nice that is.

I go up stairs and ask mum if she's coming up to hang out to which she says "ill come up in a bit"

It's now 2:27am and everyone has gone to bed! and what's worse is they didn't even say goodnight ><;; no knock or anything! and they can't say "oh we thought you were asleep cause not only was my TV on but so was my music! they knew I was up and didn't even bother to just open the door and say g'night!!!!!


*fumes quietly so as not to wake anyone*

*pins post-it to outside of door stating in no uncertain terms that "YOU ALL SUCK!!!! :P"*

I could update on my past few weeks of life which have been full of many fun things.......but im tired and can't be bothered typing cause I wanna finish watching Drawn Together so I can start it all from the beginning again ^_^

I update for one reason - yes its happened again, despite my various plea's to the possible guy upstairs, I have aged another year....

Im not pleased about this. No. No. NO!

And yes while its true 23 may not be old, it IS the age where you have to do something...ANYTHING to secure any kind of future. Or at least decide on a plan for the next year.

So should you feel so inclined I am accepting condolences and expressions of sympathy at this sad time and in turn will be cheered up in the knowledge that at least Im not yet 30 *when its a case of either get sperm~ed up or give up*....*lucky for me I have had the answer to that choice since I met my cousin Jenny when she had turned 2 and realized I finally knew in my heart of hearts that I would be able to drown a child at birth ^_^*


Big love to all my peep~ety~peeps me love you long time ^^
 

This has been a lot of fun - really I've enjoyed my week so much........ya know with the FUCKING PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its not bad enough that I hate my job but now it see's fit to make me ill as well as depressed. That's right, for the past 5 days I have been subjected to mind shattering stomach pain, the kind that double's you up while trying to straighten you at the same time. And to what do I owe this new found pleasure? Food Poisoning from a bottle of 6 week out of date Coke Zero ><;; Turn's out there is somehing in Coke that once gone off, can cause extremely bad food poisoning, even put my nana off coke a few years back when a few friends of her's had the same thing - wont drink the stuff now unless there is nothing else.

Here was me thinking that the rest of the team were doing their bloody jobs only to find that they were not - and in spectacular fashion I might add!

Thankfully its begining to ease a little now which is good what with me going away at the weekend ><;; With any luck it will fuck off by Friday and I can actually enjoy my time off ^_^

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Oh I saw HAIRSPRAY this week - quite possibly the gayest, campest movie I have ever seen next to Grease - it FUCKING ROCKED!!!!!! ^_^

Not updated on the goings on in my life for a bit - mainly cause I have been without a second to myself that hasn't been dominated by a need for sleep or harry potter. I actually took a week off from reading just because my head was close to imploding from reading so much. Im not a fast reader so forcing myself to speed up as much as I can soon caused trouble ><;;

Well Harry aside i've had a strange few weeks. the first being that I havn't been able to get a decent and relaxing night's sleep in about 2 months and have thus been exausted 85% of the time. This lead to me leaving the shop door unlocked one moring when I went to get breakfast before the store opened ><;; I was the only one there so no one would have known if I hadn't told Kev thinking he was a nice guy - he isn't - and he let it slip to Lor.

So then I had a meating with her to decide if I was to be suspended! My luck held out though since I on the day in question I had been SO out of it that I don't clearly remember if I had and just kinda blacked out while I was opening the door again. I now have to wait to see if I will have to have a hearing thing - basically summed up as Lor, Nora[DM] and another manager sitting me in a room and asking me questions....they say its formal....I say its bullshit ^_^

After all this door business I then had the strangest meeting I have ever had with Lor, she told me she thought I should LEAVE BLOCKBUSTER!?! This is because of my back being in such pain 60% of my day. You see I havn't said anything about it too her because I did't want the stigma that would go with it ie. She would cut my hours. So I've kept quiet and done every single shift, often working 6 days a week 3 weeks out of each month, all the time popping pills just so I could stand up and all in the name of money. So I explained why I hadn't said anything, I needed the money and sh was in no position to loose her only fully trained member of staff with a load of new starter's. Then she said something that actually made me like her for the first time in the 3.5 years i've worked for her...

She told me that my health was the most important thing here, once it's damaged there is no one who will look after you in this life. She said that while she was thankful for my loyalty she knew I wasn't going to stay forever because I was more talented and worth more than this place! The she said that if she was in my position she would leave and find a job that wouldn't hurt me so much and that could offer me the hours I wanted. Needless to say it was a strange event, having your boss tell you you should leave her in the shit lol


So I had my first interview in 6 years or so with Vacu-Lug[they make tyre's] on tuesday ^_^ while the job wasn't something I think I wan't to do, it was still nice to be selected for an interview having not actually applied for anything [I just sent CV's out to a few places a month ago]. The job was a call centre thing and only 6 month fixed term so not really what im looking for.

Now im on a mission to fnid myself a new job, I was forced to take a week off by Lor so I have spent it filling out foms and the like....Oh and should anyone be thinking of applying for a job in anything civil service wise, especially the police, I don't recommend it. Not unless you know everything about evey member of your immediate family and evey day off you have had in the past 3 years.....exact date and reason ><;;


Ill update again with the more fun things that have happened but not atm since im currently making a video by use of The Sims 2 - well I say video, what I actually mean is the beginning of a series I had worked out a trailer for in college ^_^ since I don't have a camera or actors I havn't been able to do it...then it hit me! I have little controllable people in a designable world with life like elements!...what more do ya need *bounces* So now im finishing creating the custom stuff and can start filming soon.

Watch this space for the video when it's finished cause ill want to know what ya think ^^

It's been a pretty adrenalin filled weekend due to a couple of things. The first being that i've not actually slept for more than 3 hours a night in a week bar last night where I got 6 hours and woke up with a headache ><;;

The Second being that this weekend has been the festival to rule them all, Glastonbury, which I have been watching religiously and bouncing all over my room to the likes of The Killer's, Maximo Park, Kaiser Chiefs, Editors, The Arctic Monkeys, Paul Weller, The Who, Klaxons, Just Jack, The View, Amy Winehouse.....and so many small random bands that have caught my attention throughout the weekend. Some of the best I have seen has had to be Kaiser Chiefs who were just amazing if for no other reason than the amount of energy they showed! though the set was fantastic and full of a few fav's of mine. The other band who rocked in so many ways were The Killers, i've only recently started to develop a deep love for them and watching them perform, even if only via tv, was amazing and had me singing and clapping my little heart out.
The only thing I didn't like was the fact that I wasn't there! and what's worse is that I was supposed to be ><;; I had planned last year, when I heard it was definatly going to on, that I was going without fail - that was until the day the tickets were released....and I was broke...with no overdraft. I was due to get paid the next night but by that time all the tickets were gone, and try as i did I didn't win any competitions *cries* So I was left with the only thing I could do - all weekend/week Glastonbury Fever ^_^ spent watching live act's via the wonderful BBC red button and then listening to my all out playlist comprised of about 25 acts.

This little disappointment shant be happening next year though, I now have an overdraft and the forsight to save some cash ahead of time, so if anyone is thinking of going next year let me know cause the company would be wicked ^_^ and lets face it - its something EVERYONE should do at least once in their lives, and im damned if im going to accept that my mum and dad have been and not me ><;;


Ok so the other happy/sad moment of my weekend has been Doctor Who. I had 3 reactions to last night's episode - non of which were what I expected. The first was that I couldn't move through the whole episode, the second being that I couldn't stop shaking and the third....I cried, not cause I was so much upset but I couldn't hold onto my emotions.
Im sure some people didn't like it, or don't feel as much for the show as me but I just couldn't help but love every second of the whole thing. The acting was fantastic by both Tennant and Simm, actually im a little upset that then used him as the master because although he is fantastic in many ways, I actually think he would have made an amazing Doctor!
It will be a sad night next saturday when the third season ends, i've heard that Freema isn't having a second season which is surprising since I think she was a great addition and much better character wise than Billie - though I didn't hate her as much toward's the end...maybe cause she left? ^_^

OH and is no one has been watching Jekyll I order you to go watch cause OH MY GOD!....im not going to be able to see James Nesbitt in the same way again *shudders just a little*

I have a new toy and it is much fun - that toy is Google Earth ^_^

Its so very nifty and I have been spying on everyone i know cause a lot of folks I've never met but have addresses. So far I've looked at all my family, the place's i've been on holiday, Japan and friends such as hell_san ^^ your house looks really spiffy and your garden is all big and stuff lol

its very fun and everyone should download it free and go be nosey

*is so easily amused*

Is anyone else just plain SICK of Nelly Furtado, Timberland and Justine Timberlake?

I mean it's gone way beyond any kind of joke! Why do they even bother going under their solo name's when they havn't appears apart in their past million song?!

At one point I would have called myself a minor fan of all 3 but im so sick on Justin's squeak, Nelly's emotionless whining and Timberland's crap ><;; Every song is either Nelly whinging about some random bollocks or all three of them chanting about how super wonderful great smashing wow they are!


Yes it seems a small thing to rant about but everytime I turn the fucking tv on they're there ><;; Its enough to make me want to rip all my skin off while being showered in lemon juice and salt...if I had the hitman I swear to GOD!!

*goes back to squeezing her lemon juice in preparation*

Stupid fucking bid!!!

Almost 2 weeks I have had to put up with this insane Blackbird and his mate squawking away at all hours of the day guarding their nest while attacking my poor Pixie ><;;
I wouldn't mind too much if I had actually seen or heard any babies in this time! I've seen one and it was dead on our kitchen floor, bought in by Pixie though we doubt she killed it on purpose cause usually she just plays with animals but never hurts them much.

So I've come to the conclusion that they are waking me up every pissing morning, protecting a nest and babies that DON'T FUCKING EXIST!!!


Anymore of this and im going to shoot them with peas!!

I really should have seen it coming before now, I mean time passes and people move on, even when you don't.

So there's a guy, i've known him for nearly 5 years and through out this time we became close, so close I could talk to him about anything and though I didn't find myself attracted to him I cared about him more than any other man id met.
This guy and I had so much in common and he accepted all my strange quirks - and he said he loved me. He meant it and I knew that but found myself in a position where I didn't want to be loved. I couldn't stand the idea of being touched or looked at and I had to turn him down, its hurt him and I know that and since then things became a little strained. We almost met but it didn't go so well and left me feeling unsure about what was going on with him or the whole situation.

Well after January we had a little argument and after that things just stopped, I hardly heard from him and began to feel like I had lost another friend. Its been 6 months and I've hardly heard from him - at first I knew why, he told me he was feeling depressed and couldn't or didn't want to share it with anyone. It hurt me more than he will ever know since I thought we were close - I felt like now if i said anything too him I would be adding to his problem since his excuse was he didn't want to bring anyone down by telling them what was up. Unfortunately that just made it that much worse for me especially since in those past months I had started to wonder if maybe it might have been worth giving things a try, I wasn't sure ow I felt about myself or him but I knew enough to know how much he cared about me or used too at least. I knew that he was the only person who had seen me and knew me and still loved me.

Well that brings me to today - see the texts have been few and far between but in the time i've found myself missing him deeply and thinking maybe it would be time to say something, maybe make plans to meet up properly and see what happens, start things slow and just see where it lead. If I knew it wasn't meant to be at least we would have tried and could say that much.

But like I said, I should have seen it coming - he's got someone.

The last time he found someone I lost all contact with him for a year, when we got back in touch it was amazing. Now I see it happening again, the lack of contact, the lack of reply or conversation when we text, it all makes sense and its all too late.

I can't tell him any of this because how the hell would I! I don't know how I feel and I don't know what would happen and I can't fuck him about like that!

But now I sit here knowing that i've lost another friend and not like the people who used to call themselves my friends, the one's who never really cared about me, who only ever cared about themselves and who were never there for me when I needed them, but always expected me to be there no matter what. I can live with loosing people who don't think I matter because maybe im better off without those people. But when I find someone who actually likes me for who I am, who wanted to be there for me when the world was falling down around my feet....the idea of losing them again hurts so much all i can do is cry....especially when I think that maybe, just maybe they could have been something more.


So im back where I started again - no friends who actually really give a toss about me, no one who would really care if i died, no one who would cry if I wasn't around, no one who's lives i've helped. I've not made a mark on anyone's life no matter how hard i've tried and have I ever been thanked for anything i've done for anyone? There is only one person who has ever said thank you and the rest have never said a word to me...just take take take till I had nothing left and then left me behind...



guess that's all then, ill just reside myself to loosing him and everyone else who has ever meant a thing to me.

To any who care about how i am or what i've been up too for the past month+ I will be doing a big update later in the week.

I have basically been working flat out for the past 2 months while trying to fight for a job that already mine (but that's another story which ill say more about later). Along with that i've been hanging out with the super Mr Eliott~San, unfortunately he has now sod off for 10 weeks on a travelling trip round Australia, New Zealand and Fiji so im now all alone with no one to hang out with in this shit tip of a town. Granted this is nothing im not used too by now but with work killing me slowly every day im there it was thanks to Eli that i stayed as sane as i have :(

Well to everyone out there reading and caring - Howdy ^_^

The mouse is called Bert, it told me.

He/She's now been fed 2 raisins and a slither of Brazil nut from a packet of mixed fruit and nut alpen ^_^

I've even given him/her some water in the shape of a tea light casing with a side almost cut out and filled with a little water then pushed under the cabinet with a chopstick ^^ hehehe

I have taken kitten britches away and closed the door since Bert was starting to close his eyes for a nap and I didn't want her disturbing him/she



.........its so cute!!!!

That's just little something from our new resident who decided to make itself comfortable this morning. How very cute our little mousey friend is - unfortunately she/he has decided to hide in the back room underneath only 3 pieces of furniture in the whole house that we can't move easily ><;;

and Pixie?.....fucking usless! she brings us these little gifts now and again and then fails, with an astounding amount of talent, to keep a hold of it. I've left her to keep guard in the hopes she can maybe scare it out and into an easier to reach location, i have no fears about it getting hurt since she's crap lol ^_^


I enjoyed a nice day with my dad and co, we had easter bbq and I got lots of love for being very generous and getting choc's for the kids and step-mum and wine for my dad....its true, i rock!!

Sadly it wasn't all happy since Jaks, my dad & co's totally dippy and totally huge german shepard had to be put to sleep a few days ago. As much as dad isn't one to grow deeply attached to pets he did have a soft spot for the big fluffy pup :( Well since the reason he died was because of a cancer tumor the size of a small football growning on his spleen I know he's now in a better place......laying in the way of the gate's so people have to climb over him ^_^

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Well its my last night off and next week I start as acting assistent manager of sorts.....basically more hours and more morning shifts but that's about it. Im planning to save up the money and then wait for the perfect moment to drop her in the shit by leaving her with only 3 members of staff LOL *can already feel the joy building up in her*

Im also having my dad take me out in the car in 2 weeks to let me get used to being behind the wheel, maybe then i can start my lessons again with a better instructor and land myself with a car! Not a fan of being limited to trains and the like - time for me to get mobile!

Will also allow me to get down to the gym more as im picking up the dieting pace after getting a shock about my actually weight - I dont think i look anywhere near 14.6st but thats what it says so THAT HAS TO CHANGE!! I feel like a whale when I think about it and now looking in the mirror makes me cry they way it didn't before...




You know who you are.
And since you have decided to just never talk to me again but ARE looking on here for reasons unknown to myself since you seem happy to throw away 4 years of friendship - Hi. Happy Easter.

BLUE SCREEN OF DEATH HAS NOTHING ON ME!!!!

Today shall go down in the history of my life as the day I FUCKING ROCK!!!!!

It was almost the day I lost 140GB of stuff when my computer died, but I wouldn't give up! I actually managed to fix it........without knowing how! natural tallent and logic mind worked it out by itself and it fucking well worked!! *dances* I don't think I could be happier than I am today - even my wedding day or the birth of my child wont match this ^_~ What's more I can now fix it when it happens to my folks which it does - a lot. the only slight downer is that should I have tried all those other time's I may not have lost countless harddrives of stuff in years past ><;;


Im going to dance and sing now cause today is a good day to be alive folks!!!!

Sodding holiday!!

Im on my last day and quite frankly I could have just been off for a weekend and feel the same. A total of 7 days without work and its gone by so fast Im alarmed, what's more annoying though is that thanks to my unwelcome cough I have done a fine job of doing nothing besides watching Family Guy and playing on my DS/FFXII the whole time!!

I've half a mind to go in on monday and book off another week off asap just so I can actually do something ><;;

As such Im now left with an impending sense of doom with regards to going back to work..........it will be PS3 madness all over the show and quite frankly I don't think I could take it. Add this to the sad fact that this is Eliott's last week and im left wishing I could turn back a few weeks, maybe then Id have more fun work shifts with Eli-poo and my friend John might still be talking to me - seems he's all be blanked me and I have no clue why, busy he may be but it takes but seconds to txt someone and say hi ><;;


Fuck me, now i've lost an hour as well............meh 

Yep tomorrow is the release of the hallowed PS3 Console!! and do I want one???

DO I FUCK!

I have had to push it so hard for pre-order at work that quite frankly I could happily go a year without ever hearing the word again ><;; And im a sony fan!

There is nothing like having a pushy DM ramming PS3 down your throat to make you laoth it with a passion, this I find amazing considering I have been waiting and longing for one for the bast part of 2 years lol

So as it stands I will be san console until they first drop the price from that insane price tag of £424.99 and second, actually bring out some games I want to play - somthing that doesn't involve some butch white american going around killing aliens and monsters......*rolls eyes*


well thats it...
nothing else important happening tomorrow...
nothing at all
.............oh apart from...


HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY briargate


LoL Hope you have a fantastic day hun and we will have to sort out something soon, maybe a nott's trip or something?

Its been a few weeks but mainly cause the only exciting thing that's happened too me is that i've managed to afford a Nintendo DS + Final Fantasy 3 [and 3 other games that ill sell on]. That and the fun of Final Fantasy XII but i wont rave about that cause i know a few folks have yet to buy it :P lol

Been hanging out with Eliott quite a bit, talking to him lots over text as well as several lazy shifts together. Im really going to miss him when he goes off to Uni in Hull but its good for him. My nan told me the age old line "You'll make many friends through your life" but im really sick of it - im sick of having to make more friends cause the old one's either fuck off or become twats. Now I hear that more of my friends have taken to drugs and im starting to feel like im becoming the odd one out since I don't take drugs and never will after it fucked up mine and my families life - I mean its damn hard to have a good time with a group of mates when their off their tits, its like being the only sober person at a party ( >_<;)

LOL Dog just growled at the TV when the doorbell went on an episode of American Dad hehe

Work has finally taken its tole on my mind - i dont think i've ever looked forward to my ays off as much as this week, i have tuesday and wednesday off and im so happy I could dance lol Even though i've been told im becoming the new acting assistant manager it makes no diference, my plan is to wait until she final puts it through and then wait a week before quitting - if she ask's why im leaving now ill tell the truth, its taken 3 years for her to do what she should have done 2 years ago so this is her punishment for walking over me stupid wench.

Since im feeling less than great about my life atm im gonna go play with someone else's ^_^ *pets the sims*

This is why jpqueen.com is the shiznit ^_^ cause they tell me exactly what i need to hear when i need to hear it - the information being.......

THERE IS A PASSION VOLUME 4!! *dances like the crazy yaoi otaku she is* LOL

DMP arn't listing it yet since it was only released this month but id be amazed if they didn't get the licence for it. However knowing them its going to be another looooooooong wait again since volume 3 came out in 2003 and its taken them this long to get it out ><;; just hope someone will get round to translating it soon cause im inpatient and wanna know what happen's lol

Its just accured to me though that I had often wondered if all the yaoi manga had been done long ago and now it had all stopped LOL since all the stuff we are getting has been out years its nice to see that they are still writting it over in the land of the rising son (^_^)

*runs off to bed to watch Family Guy and giggle muchly*

Just finished reading PASSION VOLUME 3........are they bloody kidding me!?! How can they end it like that!?.......*glares at junemanga.com* Its obvious from the story that its not the final volume yet I can't find a date for Volume 4 anywhere, please let there be one cause dammit it's like the first series I read and loved and now its left me feeling grumpy cause I wanna know what happens!

*fumes and look pleadingly at hell_san* You wouldn't happen to have the scanlated volumes anywhere would you my love? *pouts*

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Oh on a totally different note I FEEL HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!! LOL

I went into work today and Lor said she needed a word with me so we went into the back, me wondering what id done wrong now, turns out id done nothing wrong - quite the contrary. With Eli~poo leaving in April she has decided to not only put my contract up to 25-30 hours but also give me all the jobs he used to do such as audits and rota's not to mention mornings. More than that though, since he is basically the assistant manager that will make me...........New Assistant Manager!!!!!!! *dances*

Granted this doesn't mean I wont be looking for another job - if something comes up in a journalistic/media field i'll take it without hesitation but till then i'm happy to be getting more hours and a bonus on my CV lol

Well here it begins....the long journey to Valentine's Day (¬_¬)

I loath this day with all my passion - yes mainly cause I never get anything...from anyone! And on the times I do I try my best to forget and why you might ask? cause its always something from my Nana.........

It's a nice thought but man it makes me feel like total and utter shit!! I mean its a new kind of sad if the only VD crap come's from your family ><;;

Just this once I'd like to get something from someone else! I mean im Bi so im not even limiting it to just blokes - hot girls are more than welcome! It would just be nice to know that someone on this planet besides my nana loves me (-_-) *sighs*

Looks like im gonna end up hoping to get something at my door that day only to be dissappointed yet again.

Only joy is that if things go to plan im off round Eliott's with Sam in the afternoon/night for and I quote "film, wii, chinese, valentines orgy and maybe more" ^_^ So should I have no luck with the love I get to spend the night with one kelly clarkson loving gay lad and one hot but 18yo lad LOL


Should any passing hot guys/girls flick past this journal feel free to send VD-day loving to me - address is back a few posts *looks up with puppy eyes*

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On a separate note I can see why you have read MARS so much hell_san, it totally rocks and I love it muchly ^_^ I like when blowing amounts of money results in an unexpected gem like that *bounces off to bid on vol 3-5*

A funny thing happened to me yesterday, I was at work and a girl came up and asked me what I thought was "Do you have The enemy". Puzzled I just told her I wasn't sure and to go to the counter and they will have a look, well I get back to the counter and am just saying goodbye to Lor when I overhear Ben talking to this girl about 'Anime' and the stuff we had!! Turns out id herad her wrong and she was looking for anime to rent ><;;

So I went down to the bottom of the store and struck up a conversation asking if there was anything in particular that she was looking for, turns out we had quite a lot in common! Her name is Abigail and she's 27 and shes a huge fan of anime, manga and Japan in general ^_^ She has a big thing for Samurai anime like Samurai Champaloo and Samurai Seven though she's also a FMA fan. Unfortunatly she's not a yaoi/BL fan but thats not a problem since she's one of the first anime fans i've met in Grantham!! Especially the first one who agree's with me that Dragonball Z, Ghost In The Shell and Naruto are not as great as everyone makes out and that they are greatly over hyped (¬_¬)

Anyway so we exchanged numbers and have agreed to arrange an anime night soon ^^ Im having a look through my collection to see what i've got thats not yaoi so I can introduce her to some more stuff beside's samurai fun. Im thinking Wolf's Rain is the first one on the list since the BL thing is mainly slashable so not likely to be thought about by people not into that......silly people......but people non the less lol

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Oh do we remember the list? well it kinda grew a little in the past few days...i totally blame people on ebay and DramaQueen offering extra 10% off to Aarinfantasy.com members ><;;

So here's what else i've got:
+Challengers V2
+Your Honest Deceit
+Last Portrait [all thanks to extra DQ discount though it only took off like $4 ><;;]
+Poison Cherry Drive [got it for £4.90 incl p+p on ebay!]

I've bid on some other things too like volumes 1-5 of Paradise Kiss which at the moment im winning @ £15 for the lot including p+p  as well as some other random volumes. My logic is that if I dont buy them now I may never get them so cheap LOL.............yep thats what I'll be telling the bank manager when he calls hehehe

Im feeling a little less behind now that im catching up on all the stuff I didn't get over xmas. However this is my last big blowout before I get payed again in 2 weeks! Then I have more lined up hehe